spring 2009.
this semester finally started last wednesday, and i'm closer to finishing off my first year in college as every hour ticks by and so far, its been quite the journey for me.
i've learned quite a lot about myself through others and i'm pretty proud of myself. as always, we gain and lose friends and through it all, we figure out who our real friends are. there are the ones that stick to you through it all no matter what, and then there are the ones that just think its okay to fuck you over. my first year taught me so much about myself academically too. i realized that i'm one of those students that do horribly under pressure and start things two weeks before the due date. and then there's the part of me that never studies because i'm a horrible studier. honestly, i don't know how i even passed political science.. lol
lately, i've done quite a few things that i'm definitely not proud of. i wish i would have been more careful, rather then carefree. i done a lot of stuff that i wouldn't have imagined allowing myself to do in a million years. or, things that happened to me that i would never thought would ever happen.
anyway, other then that.. i'm getting a new tattoo soon! don't know when yet, but it will be soon! i'm getting a blue star on my left wrist with the initial 'M' in the middle of it to represent my last name. each corner of the star will represent a significant person in my family.. my mother, my father, my brother and my sister. the last corner? that will be for my grandmama<3 even though my family is fucked up enough to be a TVB soap, i wouldn't trade them for the world. lol or would i.. ? :b
"i love the way you smile at me when we see each other..
so for some reason, lately, when i'm walking to class, or just walking by myself; i've been thinking about the same person--over and over again. i don't know why and when i think of this person, i always end up mumbling these words to myself in the harsh winter weather...
the way you kiss me passionately while we hold hands, or lay in bed..
the jokes you tell just to put a smile on my face..
the tingle down my spine when you kiss my neck..
the way you hold me at night when we fall fast asleep..
the way you playfully twiddle my hair between your two fingers..
the way you make me feel when i'm around you..
the way your warmth instantly makes all the pain in my world disappear..
i love.. you."
it isn't exactly to a certain person, but more like.. i don't know.. the combination of guys i've been with for that past couple of months.. and who knows, my future boyfriend? i'm done for tonight. i think it's time for me to go to sleep!
