new years resolution[s] ?

happy new years eve everyone!

yet another year gone, and a new year to begin again.

i'd have to say that 2008 was a year of a lot of changes. i went through so much this year... losing friends, meeting new ones, letting go of someone i loved.. and hah, learning a lot during my first semester of college. 

i tried so many new things this year that were both good and bad for me. lol man, i think im just gonna recap on my favorite months... haha

january of last year - i rang in the new year with my ex-boyfriend and his friends at his house.. it was also kyleigh's first birthday. i was so happy to be able to watch her grow up to this adorable and smart baby girl.

february - i had an amazing valentines day with the ex, once again. haha

march - it was aiden's 2nd birthday and he had it at a malaysian mcdonald's. rofl

april - big question mark. can't remember anything from april. haha

may - three years. getting ready for prom.

june - end of a three year relationship, beginning for a new life for me. 

   -PROM, GRADUATION, COLLEGE ACCEPTANCE LETTERS.

july - my 18th birthday. i met a wonderful group of people that i fell in love with. HEOPSUMMER2008. i learned to become independent and had a early taste of college life. lol

august - the end of summer, beginning of college.

september - the beginning of my partying days. hahaa.

october - jersey city. suny oneonta.

november - eh. not the best month. everything started to come back to me and i got food poising on black friday. lol

december - rockefeller center, almost became broke, bought presents with the money i made for the first time. made a gingerbread house for the first time.

i think i did a lot of things for the first time in the last four to five months. 

oh yeah. and my new years resolution.. ? i don't have any. probably just to do good in school, dont fall for stupid boys and try not to do any more extreme shit to my hair anymore. haha

NUHS CLASS OF 2008

HEOP SISTERS<3

FAMILY AWAY FROM HOME :)

Dear Ex-Boyfriend of two days,

i'm sick and tired of getting dragged along--playing these stupid mouse and cat games.

you told me that you've been hurt by all these girls, and i tell you that i've had my fair share too. i thought we connected on that level and we understood why we act the way we act towards the opposite sex. i've been more than understanding throughout the two days we were together and now you're telling me that you have confidence issues and family problems? seriously? yeah i know may probably be true and everything... but seriously? i've heard that before and i was so hurt by the person that told me that cus in the end, he ends up having a girlfriend causing me all this pain and bringing me down. even E told you about that. how i was just gloomy and dragged myself everywhere. where my "ray of happiness" was just a cover to hide my real emotions.

i told you, i was so over feeling this way. the feeling of betrayal just tore me apart. yeah, we laugh about it know and shake it off like its nothing now... but deep down, it just breaks me. it makes me lose all hope of true love in the world. making me feel as if, i would never find love.

i'm not gonna lie, college has been fun, with all the casual hook-ups with random guys that i soon find to be my friends and we all sit back and laugh reminiscing about "hey, remember that time in r32 where we..." or a "what was that thing you did that thing with your toungue?" 

casual hook-ups. i'm kinda through with them. i need to settle down some time, but not until i'm truly ready at least. i'm just taking precautions.

but anyway, in a way, i learned from you. i learned that guys are willing to say anything to get with me, then break my heart. again... and again. i'm not saying i never realized this, but every time, i try to look at it with a different perspective and tell myself "maybe this time, it would be different... he won't be like the last guy." thanks for proving me wrong.

xoxo,

your ex-girlfriend of two days, 

Erin Crystal.

Young Isolde: Why did she die, Bragnae? Why? 

Bragnae: It was an ill vapor that took her. A fever. 

Young Isolde: No. It was her heart. 

hopeless romantic? me? no way.

wait, thats a lie.

what am i talking about? me, not being a hopeless romantic? yeah. right.

im like the biggest hopeless romantic on this planet. 

i always wanted that fairytale story to happen to me. for... HIM to always say the perfect, most sweetest thing to me... to be controlling, and yet still lets me make decisions for us once in a while but not all the time.

i think ill always be a hopeless romantic. hah.

first blog.

so this is my first blog on blogger. i decided that maybe it was time for me to move on from xanga and all of the memories i've had on that.. there are just some things that i want to forget.. like how much i used to love you. because every time i go on xanga, all the memories and feelings that i used to pour into that thing just comes back to me and i just don't want to remember you anymore. i just want to forget.

there may be more to come in the future.