but i'm laying in bed listening to Gabe Bondoc while i'm texting a friend who've i guess i've told a lot too. then i flash back to what one of my best friends have told me before.. "don't give one person your all if all you get back in return is nothing.." seriously, i've tried to do that the first time around and i got hurt, second time, only put in half and i still got hurt.. and i've successfully done it this time, i didn't even give in that much and i still got hurt.. maybe that's just my personality or something, but i don't know. i'm not so sure about some things now.
i was also told in a letter once that a girls tears are very valuable and shouldn't be wasted on pitiful things like heartbreaks... that was from my first real boyfriend, the only person i ever genuinely learned to fall in love and i don't think i've ever loved anyone as much as i loved him. he's also the only one that i stayed friends with 'til this day because he was my first love, my first real best friend, my first everything and anything. he was a chapter in my life that caused so much joy and pain. but anyway, back on topic, what i'm trying to say is i haven't shed a tear for a boy since last year and... today. nothing too serious though.
hm, i hate how i never really think about blogs throughly and just start them and end them completely off topic. happens a lot. yikes. i'll end it with this. and yes, i re-activated my facebook account for my friend because she didn't want my facebook to disappear. ha.
xx,
erin crystal.
